time really pass so fast.. one month have pass... which means O lvls are a month nearer to me... freaks me out to think that... hey guess wad... this year my idea of items for campfire is JAMMING!!! ya ya spread jam on bread la hor... lol... i gonna rally a bunch of sec 4 scouts and form a band to play songs esp rock music during campfire... so excited... next incoming campfire is cat. high(meow!) =X 19 march... haix... not much time left... nowadays my class got a lot of suaning of people like other people and some rumours that has no evidence whatsoever... i warn u guys hor... stop it... this rumours can spoil a person's relationship with that person he is said to like and jokes are no longer jokes when it goes too far... this not only happen to me... so im saying this for the welfare of everyone... yawnx...

1/31/2005 09:51:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

errr sorry everyone... sorry for being so... crappy last week...but i also dunno wad i am doing... maybe trying to get attention ba... whatever la... im not a product of what people made of me... but a person made in God's hands right ^^ eh... i one week nv come online eh... no one miss me ah... =X sure got one right! dun lie! liars dun go to heaven... haha... k la... cya... next time... maybe next week =X

1/22/2005 08:19:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

argh im so fed up... sick ok... sick of everything! except God =/ if telling the truth will lose me friends, i will rather choose telling the truth... cuz i already lost so many friends that i dun care lol... after people diverted their attention from me to sean and treat me like trash and wad happened today, i wun care a shit... and if you wanna ask me why am i lydat, i am juz a product of what people did to me... you people make me lydat... only God understands me... He is the One who is with me all times...

I woke up it was seven
I waited 'till eleven
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I've got a lot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending everyday on you own
And here it goes
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that its not fair
Nobody cares
'Cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed
I'm staring at these four walls again
I'll try to think about the last time
I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that its not fair
Nobody cares
'Cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid)
Yeah, I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid...Repeat 6x)
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that its not fair
Nobody cares
'Cuz I'm alone and the worlds
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that its not fair
Nobody cares
'Cuz I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares 'cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight I'm all alone
Tonight nobody cares
Cuz I'm just a kid tonight

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1/16/2005 06:53:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

wahahaha im sec 4 le!!! IM A SEC 4!!! sec 3 and short-pants shooooo =X im still learning how to act like a sec 4... look more intimidating hahaha =X hmmmm everything is going on super super well for me ^^ everyday look forward to maths lesson cuz it is like the best class and you know wad is so good? maths occupies the most time slot in a week wahahha lol... homework has been good... i went to confront mr lim on tues bout the 'pontanging' of scouts for the whole holidays and all went well... didnt get suspended from scouts at least... going back for scouts tmr... haha... patrol games... becuz... got sec 1 orientation and it is a bait to cheat the sec 1s into joining us wahhaha juz like they did when i was sec 1 (i was cheated =X) sigh... although i have been enjoying myself... someone have been suffering in personal relationships and problems... i really wanna help... haix...

1/06/2005 07:39:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

1st day of school le!!! lol a little excited but also stressed... o lvls this year!!! >.< few months nv wear school uniform now become too small... feel abit weird la... wow i dun believe it... the holiday is the best i have so far... all thx to e337 members ^^ it is so memorable... this year i am going to give it all my best for my studies... cuz i realised that i have never done well in almost anything... in studies, relationships, sports/fitness, computer nor music... my another goal is to be good in these things by the end of the year... =/ issit abit too much? "I can do all thing through Christ who strengthens me" =D yup... im gonna have faith in myself, God and every other brothers and sisters-in-Christ=)

1/03/2005 08:09:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

errr wads new year resolution ah? issit ur goals or wad... i really dunno lehx... crap someone muz tell me =X ya... Firstly, i wanna be myself... i know i am not being myself... it has became so natural that i forgot who i really am... some people may call this a defensive action cuz the REAL me... is very serious... very unfun... very nice to everyone... very anti social... i really dunno wad to do... some times i really feel like breaking down... but i turned to God... i am trying to look around and find out wad's His answer for my prayers... haix... Secondly, i wanna get good results for O lvls(who dun) or go NS after sec 4 then be killer whale/dolphin trainer after that.... maybe thats why the REAL me cant fit into the grp... the area of passion... is totally different... Thirdly, i am going to thick skinned and go for choir ministry audition =x... i rmb there was once... i used to think for everything i do... "what for?" i feel that there is no purpose in doing anything... go online, wad for? go out, wad for? k la... i cried a fair few times even though im a guy =X but i am quite emotional and brittle =X cuz im searching for the real me... sometimes i may look happy on the outside... but the deepest of me... is suffering... praise the Lord for saving me from depression, from backsliding... but i just wanna ask one more simple thing... pls bring the REAL me back... pls... haix... Happy new year all!!!

1/01/2005 05:43:00 AM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY